A small something

For you,
from me.

Two months is a long time.

Chapter one

The distance

62

days since I last saw you

I didn't count the days on purpose.
They just kept adding up.
Each one a little quieter than the last —
and a little more certain about
how much I want to see you again.

Chapter two

Things I kept
thinking about

  • The way you laugh when something actually catches you off guard — not the polite laugh, the real one.
  • How comfortable the silence is with you. Most people make silence feel like a problem. You never do.
  • The small things you notice that no one else does. You say them so quietly, like you're not sure they matter. They always do.
  • Sitting next to you and not needing to talk. That kind of company is rare.
  • The look you get when you're thinking hard about something. I've probably stared too long more than once.

Chapter three

What I've
noticed about you

🌿

You're gentle with things — people, words, even ideas. You don't force anything.

🌙

You're more interesting the quieter the room gets. Loud situations take something away from you.

📖

You listen like you actually intend to remember. Not everyone does that.

☕

Ordinary moments feel like they mean something when you're in them. I don't know how you do that.

Chapter four

Until then

Set the date we'll finally see each other again.

00
Days
00
Hours
00
Minutes

However many days it says —
I'll be there.

Chapter five

A letter,
briefly.

I'm not the kind of person who finds these things easy to say out loud.
So I made this instead.

Two months without seeing you has been fine —
in the way that things are fine when you're used to
carrying something without showing it.

I don't have grand things to tell you.
Just that you matter to me,
more than I usually say,
and more than this page can really hold.

Thank you for being someone I can be quiet with.

— always, me.

Chapter six

Songs that
made me think of you

I didn't plan a playlist. These just kept coming on and doing that thing.

  • 1
    Bloom
    The Paper Kites
    quiet sunday
  • 2
    From Eden
    Hozier
    something real
  • 3
    Motion Picture Soundtrack
    Radiohead
    late & honest
  • 4
    Mystery of Love
    Sufjan Stevens
    soft & certain
  • 5
    I Will Follow You Into the Dark
    Death Cab for Cutie
    no matter what

Chapter seven

When we're
together again

  • I'll show up exactly as I am.
  • I'll sit with you in whatever kind of quiet you need.
  • I'll let the moment be enough — no rush, no elsewhere.
  • I'll look at you and not look away this time.
  • I'll tell you, at least once, that I'm glad you're here.

· · ·

I think about you more than you know.
And I'm glad you exist.